Stay. See.

Where truth is love.

Stay. See.

To the daughter I am,

You don’t need to worry so much about loving your mother. That was never your job to do. Nor should it have been your job to make it seem like she could love you.

I am so sorry, sweetheart.

You deserved to be loved. Look at you! You—who survived annihilation with your soul intact. You, who broke from reality, betting all your faith on your ability to survive it. You, who found your long way back by refusing to believe the lie.

You, who chose to believe your body over everything else.

“ready now” — Amistat

What am I leaving?
What is emerging?
Where can I look for resource?

What am I leaving?
1) II of Wands, Wild Unknown Tarot
2) I Existence, Osho Zen Tarot

What is emerging?
3) 7 of Wands, Light Seer’s Tarot
4) 6 of Pentacles, Shadowscapes Tarot (Pulled for the 2nd night in a row. I misread the initial reading of it.)

Where can I look for resource?
5) 444 Service, Rainbow Warrior Awaken

Statement Read at an Appeal Hearing

I read this statement in December 2025, as part of an appeal process for a disability discrimination complaint I filed against the school district in May 2025.
Names and identifying information have been redacted for protection.

I am sitting before you today because in May, I withdrew my daughter from school to protect her from disability discrimination—and the district’s complaint process has now replicated that same discrimination.

The school district has consistently shown that it does not understand high-masking Autism. Without that understanding, the district cannot claim to have provided a safe, inclusive, or legally compliant educational environment for my daughter, a high masking Autistic student.